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Monday, June 21, 2010
Oh my gosh, I'm so excited! *0*
I just received a pair of boots I purchased through LiveJournal, which I happened to come across when browsing a few sales communities. OH MY GOSH! :O I said when I first sited them. And with quick action, feeling rushed and anxious, I quickly checked the buying information, product information, costs, and shipping, and promptly made a comment to secure them O.O After the comment, that's when I took a closer look at the picture and compared them to the original pair of boots I wanted that mimicked them :3 A girl I met once and for the first time, at a meet back in October last year, was wearing a pair of black quilted patterned chocolate brown fur trim vintage boots that I absolutely gushed over *.*
A pair of the most beasty shoes ever! XD
I wish I had a better picture of them >> but here they are--
I started to second guess my impulsive reaction that they weren't the best match that fit the original how I wanted ._. But it was too late to turn back now >> Not really, I could've said never mind, but she did also ask me, when the seller replied, after confirming the details if I was interested in purchasing them. I went ahead and did it, they were after all, to me, the closest I was going to get to these original pairs ;_;
They've just arrived, after a few weeks from China, and I am so giggly about them! :D Hooray! They're so cute!!!
Trimmed in rabbit fur, suede material, with leather lacing too! Gosh darn it, even the inside is fuzzy! XD What a delicious detail that'll keep me warm during the winter x3
The remind me of vintage pictures of women in the 50s all bundled up in tights, puffy jackets with fur trimmed hoods and fuzzy boots that lace up to the ankles x3
Saturday, June 5, 2010
I've been frantic for money this week because I've been foolish in screwing myself over between indulging, paying for those indulgences, and paying for my bills x.x
I was desperate for quick, immediate, large lump sum money, which caused me to forfeit my higher priced items for sale, so I could feel secure about taking down a large chunk of my debt to hold me over... But it frustrated me TERRIBLY! As it comes down to the fact that not everybody purchases impulsively :/ ESPECIALLY NOW IN THIS ECONOMY x_x No knights in shining armor here... (._.) ~I'll be contemplating on it some more, but it could also just be me, my messages not reaching enough potential customers, or what I have to offer just doesn't have a market :(
But anyway! One item I thought to sell was a Coach bag I received as a Christmas gift from my ex-boyfriend's mom, (it was the first popular name brand item I owned, as I don't care much for them. I hadn't used it in awhile & I figured, considering having so much and needing the money more, I could get quick cash if I sold it to a buy-sell-trade store like Flashbacks or Buffalo Exchange :3 But I thought, 'I have enough time in the day to see if I might be able to sell it to anybody around for more' o.o No comments, messages, or emails; so you can sense my discouragement as I am an impatient person who wants to see immediate results -_-
A few thoughts that had crossed my mind in scheming a way to sell this bag and make money, (I'm a schemer), I knew the ones most likely to buy it, (and immediately), was my family; because it has to do with image, brand, and a good deal; they love owning brand names :3 I drew up a blank on my mother's side, but hours later, I realized there were more potential customers on my dad's side. I hadn't visited them yet. With more of my family members recently moving here from the Philippines, they would be glad of me to have come.
Horray for grandmas and family :D because she bought my bag for $60 and my auntie donated clothing items for me to sell :3 Everyone knows me to take in any donations of whatever because I don't like improperly disposed of items that I will take it upon myself to make sure they are properly taken care of ^_^ They are my sources of income but whatever I don't sell, I donate :)
As I detached myself more and more from the bag, I felt more better about the money securing me for my payments and purchases ^.^ It's just one of those things that after you go through it, you realize what it's for, things get easier, and the outcome is much more gratifying ^_^
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
It sold!!! DX I wanted it... :'( But as I note the price, $380, you would understand my ability to get it T___T
From Timeless Vixen Vintage on Etsy.com, a Vintage 1950s Melinda Designer Couture Bombshell Dress--and in white no less, my favorite color and a much needed dress in my life Xp One white fitting dress is the equivalent to me as that little black dress x__x
Ah~ One day I can make it, but it's just not the same... it's just not ._.
Monday, May 31, 2010
"...Mrs. Lindbergh's advice: 'To ask how little, not how much, can I get along with. To say--is it necessary?--when I am tempted to add one more accumulation to my life.' If I think I can't live without the object of desire and I can afford it, I'll collect it. But now I pause first. Simple Abundance is not about saying "no" to our creative impulses, whether in collecting, dressing, or decorating. It's about knowing when to say "enough" because we know that all we have is all we really need. "One cannot collect all the beautiful shells on the beach. One can collect only a few, and they are more beautiful if they are few.'"
It will be an implemented process in narrowing my collection to what I love--consider it as such places like a museum or fancy boutique that house only the best ^_~
I want to train my eye to be discriminating to what I love and for my heart to be patient if what I have or come across is not completely what I wanted--satisfying, not settling :3
Saturday, May 29, 2010
After leaving a resell shop, a couple stores down from it, I passed by a fancy dress shop. There was a white dress with floral appliques on a mannequin that I noticed earlier and wanted to check out and possibly get a picture of~ Walking in, I came upon an amazing dress in a similar style--ballerina tutu with floral embroidered appliques & a pleated cumber bun tied into a bow~
I thought to myself, after looking at the price tag of three hundred fifty dollars, that this was one of those moments I should take up to try on a dress I can't afford XD
And my the sales associate was friendly! I told her I had never had an experience like this before--being asked if I needed heels or a push-up strapless bra o.o How classy :o
At first I didn't think I was going to try on any more dresses but once I walked towards the entrance, where I originally found the dress, I happened upon two extras--why not? I don't do this everyday!
You can't imagine... I could find the money to get this dress but it wouldn't go to the most important causes that needed it -_- And yet I'm am still and always surprised that I can get one thing over another as I have several other dresses on my wish list in that price range and/or less but I would instantly let this precede them @_@ My goodness its just too beautiful...just too unique... Which is why I love it soo much >.<
The passage in today's reading was about collecting, but how the collector has a discriminating eye only to what she loves~ and as it turns out, fashion is what I collect...
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
The title it held was "FILM NOIR FATALE" 1940's Vintage Dress--they absolutely knew what image to conjure with that title ;) The seller had put up a sale until May 31. This dress was marked down from an extraordinary price of $174.99 to $59.99. I waited and let it sit there in an open tab to admire it as my current situation didn't provide the means to purchase it right away.
Today I had playfully added it to my cart, (mind you this was on Etsy), then abandoned it to give myself time to marinate on it while I focused on my more important priorities--completing the final chapters for my management final tomorrow.
After casually browsing and admiring the dress again, guess what? She MARKED IT DOWN AGAIN TO $49.99!!! Ahhhhhhhh! You can imagine my excitement XD How awesome is that? Thank you Goldmine Trash, the Lord, time, & waiting to make this dress more financially sound for me :3 Yay
Some of the things I want in exchange give me a bit more motivation to...
But just money in general, and stuff in general, is not good busy work to occupy one's self with--it's self-generated stress x_x Just plain retarded >_>
Monday, May 17, 2010
I told myself this as comfort to be understanding with myself :3 But of course, I wondered, isn't there still a way to become more structured and balanced eventually? o.o Just doesn't seem the right kind of lifestyle to be living, and I wonder if its something to come to accept or just a change of habit to nurture and support with time?
Anyways, the reading for today helped me define my thoughts from the night before. When bringing order and organization to a room, it shouldn't be done all in one shot because it will become overwhelming and there will be no sense of success and accomplishment~ It's exactly what was going on with me yesterday. I spent the entire weekend prepping and posting sales online that I overwhelmed myself and couldn't think clearly anymore, getting myself lost and not gaining any sense of accomplishment x_x
"...each successful attempt at organizing only reinforces your feelings of taking back control of your life. I had never really considered how being disorganized beneath the surface had weighed upon my mind. ...it had cost me only time (to plan), courage (to show up for work), and creative energy (to do it)."
My disorganization beneath the surface very much weighs on my mind, this is what I would like to tackle during my summer vacation :3
Sunday, May 16, 2010
On and off I'd constantly think whether to sell it or hold on to it for future uses as a lovely wall display.
I would get a decent profit from it considering my financial circumstances & goals... As I thought to carry on with the preparations of selling this piece, I wasn't satisfied with the first set of pictures I took, it just wouldn't capture the audience with them, so I took another~ And look at the results, its so beautiful that it gives me ideas and feelings to hold on to it >.<>_>
I had thought to myself earlier, before writing this, 'if I question it so much, maybe I shouldn't keep it'. I had tried to put into action, & keep in mind, the reading for today, questioning the item if it was beautiful, useful, or sentimental, also to write out my thoughts so I can make better decisions :3
I thought to myself that if I had this hung up as a decorative display, I don't think I'd enjoy its beauty well enough to keep it because I question it so much. I am trying to narrow down my collection to things I love. Sometimes I factor in an item's use as display in my own store~ But then I remember that I wanted to do online retail XP Ah, you never know -_- But maybe I shouldn't factor in the future too much in my decisions @_@
Bah! I still don't know x_x
And how ironic, but incredibly helpful, that today's daily read from Sarah Ban Breathnach's "Simple Abundance" should discuss that topic :3
"Have nothing in your homes that you do not know to be useful and believe to be beautiful." - William Morris
She referred to it as the "aesthetic alchemy of beauty and function in the home"--I really liked that XD
'While surveying your home "let the Divine spirits of simplicity, order, harmony, and beauty accompany you".' Considering last night, I was doing this already. I was allowing my authentic self to speak to me and trust her wisdom in selecting items that didn't justly serve me and would greatly serve another ^.^
She created three categories: beautiful, useful, & sentimental. 'Does it tug at your heartstrings or on someone else? If it does so on another, put it in their room.'
"Think on paper before you act..." I realized this yesterday from my last blog, how much it helped for me to write & consider my thoughts before I act :3
*"There is an ancient metaphysical law that says if we desire more abundance in our lives we must create a vacuum to allow ourselves to receive the good we seek. How can more good come into our lives if there is no room for it? We create the vacuum by giving away what we no longer need or desire but what can serve others."
This was the best visual description she could give me, and it's what I'm gonna do and live by. Everything that's been happening lately has lead up to this definition. I very much find joy in finding a happy home for the things I own that someone else finds great pleasure in :D And what's more, I'm making room for the greater things I do want to come into my life ^0^
Saturday, May 15, 2010
The vintage dresses I have were from a vintage dress lot I purchased and there were a few I liked and wanted to keep, but after coming into a situation of needing the money more, I decided I didn't really need them as they were not my true size anyways; let someone else enjoy them :) they would go for a good price as well :3
This tends to happen; I begin to take pictures of an item and prepare it for selling, then I start to second guess giving it up because of its beauty~ Call them sirens and I'm a weak, foolish sailor on the ship with Odysseus -_-
But the work it would take to make it mine would be too much :/ The dress is a large and would need to be taken in. The skirt is serged to the top and in addition to that, the skirt is pleated x____x
Thank you for letting me talk about this. I'm glad this is helping me marinate on my thoughts :3
In the daily read for today in Sarah Ban Breathnach's Simple Abundance, it touched on charm, that it is not bought with money through beautiful things, but expressed through personal authenticity and with an "artistic disposition of little"--making do with less.
I am often questioning the things I own because I look to them as a source of obtaining more things I fall for and paying off the debt I've accumulated from the same trancelike dance~I'm constantly spinning.
I am very analytical but I tend to run myself around in circles questioning:
- Am I just downsizing my collection because of other people's ideas of acceptable?
- How would I feel if I did just casually give up the bulk of my stuff?
- Is this just who I am and I just happen to constantly question it because of what other people think is right?
- Do I keep my things because of competition or because I don't want someone else to be the owner?
- Is fashion worn only advertising? o.o
There was a time my twin said that it wasn't that I had so much, but that I didn't have the proper space for it, because I keep it very organized with the space that I do have~
Thing is, there are other aspects to me that tend to go into my owning my possessions. They are my assets and my props. My fashion is my art and creativity. I am also a performer and theatrical, in a sense that I like making a statement out of my clothing. One thought was that if I did have the proper space, boy would I love to open my own clothing rental! XD I enjoy fashion, I admire it quiet avidly~ Consider my collection a museum :P
I also have a bit of an affair with business. I have always been in the business of buying & reselling, and I do enjoy it. It had occurred to me that maybe this two-step back into my old habit could be for me to learn how to enjoy beauty, but this time not become so attached with it; I mean, how can one run a resell shop falling in love with every piece she gets? Nothing would ever get sold! >.>
I guess you could say what all this is is that I tend to run away with my creativity more than my rationality. I tend to be more of a dreamer then logical and methodical~
Well, eventually I'll get it right XP
I never regretted the lessons I've learned in the past, so I'm thankful for them~ I tend to want to be the best person I can be, and it seems I'm never settled because there is always something more, I want to go so deep that I want to sense and feel every ripple of the water within myself and in others--must be that wanting to be in connection with others. I feel it's the closest I can be to people in life.
Back tracking on how all this started, I know it started with me getting the most money I've made from selling my things in March. I became comfortable with feeling secure about having enough to go out with friends and not worry about money; feeling secure that I had money in my checking, and savings! I got carried away and too comfortable and didn't manage the feeling well nor the money (>.<)